Saturday, May 13, 2006

Learning the Bulgarian Language and Culture

I started looking at the Cryptic Alphabet and I am a little scared. Learning Bulgarian is going to be a fulltime JOB. Literally the letters don’t have any resemblance to our English letters. Take a look at this link http://www.pravapis.org/art_cyrillic_translit.asp. I better start studying now before I get to Bulgaria. Yikes!!! The only problem is that I can’t start studying because I need to finish my Master’s paper. Ohh boy I need to stay focused. I keep spending time googling information on PC stuff and not working on my paper. As someone I used to work with would, say “bad girl, bad girl”.

In response to the previous blog, I think I should be prepared for whatever happens. The Bulgarian professor mentioned something about racial tensions in a prior conversation. She said she had no idea she was racist or suppressive to gypsies/romas in Bulgaria until she came to the United States. The gypsies (if this is an offensive term please forgive me of my ignorance) are an ethnic group in Bulgaria which are somewhat the equivalent to African Americans in the United States. However they are not African and have more of a Middle Eastern/ Central Asian look to them. For those of you who don’t know what a gypsy/roma is please google it.

The Prof said that Bulgarians behave in a way that is natural for them. They are not trying to be offensive they just don’t know the social norms that are acceptable in the United States. As the author of the article stated Bulgarians truly don’t consider themselves racists or have a knowledge of what the word means. They don’t have the rich history of slavery in their country. The information they have of African Americans comes from rap videos, celebrities, and movies essentially stereotypes. If someone called me the “n word” I will defiantly be offended and let them know what is appropriate and inappropriate when referring to an African American. Every culture, group of people, experience, will not be the same. So, I will have to adapt but at the same time not compromise my beliefs.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Blacks in Bulgaria- Stereotypes Exist Everywhere!!!

So I was looking for information about Bulgaria and came across this article Written by Elizabeth Miller at the American University in Bulgaria. More thoughts to come on this article later. Happy Reading...

Nothing quite satisfies one’s craving for chocolate as the Bulgarian snack, Negarche, whose name is translated into English as “little niggers.” In Bulgarian, the translation means merely “little black baby,” with the reference being cute rather than derogatory. But I have found no luck in my quest for “little white baby” or “little yellow baby” cookies.

The Negarche cookies are easily recognized with the near-photographic representation on the cookie box of a black baby with a head a third the size of his body and lips bigger than his hands. Whether the name is intended to be racist or not is up to debate, but the picture on the box clearly reflects stereotypes.

The following disclaimer may be necessary: all opinions in this piece are the opinions of an American, an outsider if you will. This is just something I noticed as an outsider and felt worth bringing to light.

The demographic shortage of black people in Bulgaria, while not the fault of Bulgarians, has me counting them as I see them. I have been in Bulgaria for six months and have seen only six black people. As an American used to color and a diversity of people, I find this odd. The most reoccurring black person in my life here is Uncle Ben, whose picture is advertised on some of the rice and flavored food sauces available in Blagoevgrad.

Most people here seem oblivious to racial slurs as advertisements boldly repeat them on products in the local stores. Even at AUBG, attempts at addressing diversity issues seem to be minimalist. (A couple of years ago though, when AUBG had a student from Antigua, the Skaptopara cafeteria stopped selling Negarche cookies because of their potentially offensive name.)

During the diversity training session I attended during my first week at AUBG, students discussed ethnic, religious, sexual and other differences a student body may encounter. Then the resident assistants showed us examples of cultural tolerance.

My mouth hung open when the resident assistant used the word “nigger” in one of the example exercises demonstrating tolerance. I scanned the room for the look of shock I expected to see in others. No one seemed the least bit surprised by this word in a seminar teaching tolerance, despite its offensive connotation to a whole race of people.

Later I was told the “n” word is not offensive in Bulgarian - instead, saying ‘black” has the connotation of the “n” word. Funny the language of instruction at AUBG does not happen to be Bulgarian, but English, and in English, the “n” word remains offensive. One would hope in a tolerance class showing incoming students who speak many languages, English sometimes being their only common language, this would be an inappropriate English example of tolerance.

Numbly, around town I read posters advertising “Nigger Party” or “Black Party” in Blagoevgrad, though these posters are meant to advertise rap or hip-hop nights. Rap music provides one of the many stereotypes associated with black people. No one seems to have a problem associating them with gangs, thieving, drugs, and other aspects connected with rap music.

However, most Bulgarians are appalled that anyone would associate them with their most popular music - pop-folk, also known as chalga. Apparently many Bulgarians are offended if someone ignorant of Bulgarians in general associates them with scantly clad women, laud sex acts, and poor taste in lyrics. I imagine most of the black population feels that same offensiveness to being associated solely with rap music.

I expressed my shock that so few black people reside in Bulgaria to a few friends here. The topic brought up interesting perspectives. One Bulgarian informed me of common knowledge I had not been privy to earlier: “Black people are inherently stupider than white people.” He believes intelligent black people happen about as rarely as super geniuses.

A Ukrainian, knowing I had lived in Africa, asked: “So, is it true, I heard that black men are really, you know, big?” Perhaps he thought everyone runs around naked in Africa (not the case), and I was thus knew the size of male genitalia in Ghana. Or maybe it is just common practice for him to ask about the size of other men’s genitalia in the first week of knowing someone. I find either case disturbing.

An American Mormon missionary to Bulgaria merely said, “There are some smart black people,” thus proving ignorance is not limited by any means to residents of Bulgaria.

“Because there are so few black people here, they are seen as fun and exotic, and often become movie stars,” said a Bulgarian. Fun and exotic, like a label on a zoo tag.

These beliefs confuse me. With so few black people in Bulgaria, how can anyone comment at all? Then I recall my distain as time and time again I hear people group ethnicities, religions, and nationalities together in their prejudiced opinions of Christians, Atheists, Muslims, Albanians, Bulgarians, Americans and other groups. Even when reminded of exceptions they brush them under the carpet to stand firm in their close-minded prejudices, forcing stereotypes to encompass everyone in these “groupings.”

For me, people are all the same. No matter what race, nationality, sex or any other differentiating man-made category, the bottom line is there are good and bad people in any category. I distinguish the difference on an individual basis.

I have never met anyone who wants to be associated with a mass stereotype. The common courtesy to not judge someone else on stereotypes should be enforced worldwide. Practice starts with sensitivity in language usage and making intelligent references to people, or none at all if one has no experience to draw reference from.

However, perhaps cookies’ association to racism is a tradition throughout cultures. The famous American cookie Oreo was first made and named in 1902 and at that time had no negative connotation surrounding its name. Yet, now, according to Wikipedia, the word Oreo has a new meaning. It is “often used by lower-class blacks against professional and educated blacks, often those who work for whites or who work in industries that they feel exploit African-Americans.” This usage, the online encyclopedia says, was developed as a metaphor for a new generation of educated African-Americans starting in the 1960s.

It seems cookies are being used by multiple races, nationalities, and other groups of people to express some form of xenophobia. So then perhaps the question is: does the racist connotation make the cookie or does the cookie make the racist connotation?

With the EU accession drawing nearer, Bulgarian people are working to change buildings, governments, and other aspects of society. Desserts with potentially offensive names are probably one of the remains of the past Bulgarians are not quite ready to give up. Meanwhile, it’s nice to know I can go to the sweet shop any day of the week and pick up a fresh “little nigger.” No questions asked.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

My Invite is Here!!!! Bulgaria Here I come!

Map of Bulgaria


I am an official Peace Corps invitee to Bulgaria! My staging event, which is the place PCV meet in the United States before service, is August 4th in Philadelphia or Washington D.C. We leave the country for Bulgaria August 7th, 2006. Can you believe it… an African American girl in Bulgaria? I am so excited.

It’s funny how my life always comes into full circle. My sister went to Bulgaria on a mission’s trip when we were in High School. Our youth pastor took about 15 young adults and teenagers on a trip that changed their lives. I didn’t get a chance to go, but I really respected my sister’s experience. She told me about how nice the people were to her and the sense of hospitality that every Bulgarian extends to foreigners. But most of all I remember her experience as a missionary. They only stayed in Bulgaria for about a week, but the presence of God was felt in that place. People there have a deeper sense of faith than we have in the states. Literally God healed the sick, demons were casted out, and people heard the voice of the Lord. I am not joining the Peace Corps to convert people; I just hope I can find a church community to belong to.

I am also excited because one of the Profs at the University is from Bulgaria!!!! I went to her house about four weeks ago to discuss Bulgarian culture. I didn’t know for sure that I would be going to Bulgaria at the time, but I had a small feeling that it might happen. She is also married to a Returned Peace Corps Volunteer (RPCV) that served in Latin America. Anyhow, this woman has family in Bulgaria i.e. her parents, sisters, and brothers. She extended her Bulgarian hospitality to me and offered to put me in contact with her family members. Yeah. I just need to find out what city I will be in so that I can meet up with them.

Furthermore, my former Youth Pastor has taken trips to Bulgaria at least four times over the last ten years. I can’t wait to ask him about his experiences in Bulgaria.

Pray for me!!!! I need to stay focused so that I complete all the School work I have to do before the Peace Corps. We are in finals week and I should be studying, but I am writing this blog. Heehhejejeje . I also need to be strategic (I guess this word is coming from the Strategic Planning Class I studied for yesterday) in planning to move from PA back to Chicago and Chicago to Bulgaria.

Money, Money, MONEEEY!! I want to save money so that I can travel while I am in the Peace Corps. This means frugal living until my departure date.

Hey I am also thinking about running the Marathon in Athens Greece!!! Greece is literally right beneath Bulgaria.

From the Eastern Part of the States BULGARIA HERE I COME!!!!!!

Crystal

Friday, April 28, 2006

Invite On the way

Hello World!!!!

I am so excited. My invitation to the Peace Corps is in the Mail!!!! YEAH!!!!! They mailed it out yesterday, so, it should be getting to me sometime next week.

In a way this makes me kind of scared. Next week will be my last week at work. I think I will miss it. I didnt expect this to happen.

Anyhow, HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Observation

I am soo tired! One of the girls I ride the bus with asked me to braid her hair today. I did her hair in micros for about 11 hours! I have been braiding hair a lot lately. Anyhow, I got to this girls house about 9am and left about 8pm. Her two kids and boyfriend were there the entire time. The kids are five and one years old. They were getting on my nerves, but, they were really cute. Problem was, we had to constantly stop so she could cater to her kids and boyfriend. Urggh!!!!

I could sort of understand her stopping for the kids, but her man needed to take care of himself. (I hope she doesn’t read this blog). The girl is African American her boyfriend is white. The fact the he is Caucasian doesn’t bother me; it’s the fact the she had to do everything for him that I couldnt understand. Literally the guy yelled for her about three times to get things for him. First it was to get a shirt from the basement, than it was to turn the television from the kids cartoons to rap videos, lastly it was to give him the password for his cell phone! I don’t know if I am making a bigger deal out of this because he kept interrupting us, but, it seemed really strange that he needed her attention at that moment. He should have been watching the kids while she was tending to her beauty needs =).

I'm writing this blog because woman are pulled in many directions. This woman works full time at work and full time at home. When the weekend comes instead of her partner helping her take care of the kids while she is beautifying herself for him, he places demands on her. I didn’t like how she was so submissive to him. Once I completed her hair she decided she liked it only after her partner said it looked nice. When I commented on the cleaniness of her house, her response was she keeps in clean because her boyfriend is a neat freak. I know that I can never be this type of woman…

Don’t get me wrong, I could tell that he really cared about her, but is that enough when he treats her like crap? They have been together for about five years now and she is going to be 24 years old next month. They were high school sweet hearts but she seems so weak to me. I know I should mind my own business, but I can’t.

Spending 11 hours at her house made me realize a lot of things that I would not have known about her from just riding the bus. I don’t like (what I perceive to be) her weakness. The girl has so much drive and ambition outside of her relationship with him. When I see her on the bus I see a strong ambitious African American woman. When I see her with him she seems so weak and insecure. This bothers me because he should be helping her develop her self-esteem, rather than demolishing it. Maybe he is intimidated by her strength, I dont know! It is times like this that I am glad that I am me!


Food for thought,

Crystal

This is a picture of me and my twisted hair.

Saturday, April 15, 2006

Random Thoughts

Hey,
I feel like everything in Middletown, Pa is coming to an end. This is both sad and good at the same time. I have about two months left here. As I attempt to finish off school projects, pack, wait for my invitation to the Peace Corps, and deal with my social life, I am starting to feel drained! I love the buzz of being busy but I really just want to relax and do nothing for at least a week.

My Peace Corps Placement Officer called me Wednesday to see if I wanted to leave earlier than scheduled. I was truly considering leaving early, like June, but than I started to think about all the commitments I have already made. I cant leave early. I haven’t seen my niece since she was three and I have never seen my nephew who was born two years ago. I need to be able to see them and the rest of my family before I leave. I also accepted the position that I mentioned in an earlier post that I don’t want to turn down.

Although I really am not too keen on Middletown, I have had some great experiences here. I actually went to a hockey game for the first time a couple weeks ago!!!! Imagine and African American girl at a hockey game, how weird. To be honest, I really enjoyed every aspect of the game. It was a great experience. I also got a chance to see a play at the Whitaker Center on the "Diary of Ann Frank". The plot was great, the acting was not so great. A lot of the people in the play didn’t seem to have much acting experience. It was a play nonetheless! Yesterday I got a chance to see Hershey Chocolate world. If you know anything about Hershey Chocolate, you know it was a stimulating experience for me. I love chocolate. I learned about how chocolate is made, which made me think about my experience in Ghana, West Africa.

In Ghana a lot of the natives were talking about the Coco industry. Coco comes from Ghana but Ghanaians purchase chocolate from the western part of the world. It is like the people in the Middle East selling oil to western parts of the world but purchasing it back once it has gone through the purification process. Coco is produced in Ghana but they don’t have a huge chocolate industry there. Companies like Hershey, produces coco plants in Ghana and sells them Chocolate. Interesting concept to me, especially considering that coco is a huge part of their GDP.

Anyhow, weird things keep happening to me in Middletown. I was followed by some random guy last summer and now it seems like his buddies are trying to harass me because I reported him to the police. Long story short, I usually walk the same route to school every time I walk past a cemetery. The guy that harassed me was usually by the cemetery. I know people suggest woman should vary their routes but this town is really small and its irritating to go out of my way just to avoid some wackos.

I was walking back home Wednesday, the day my placement office called me, and one of the guys, that I know recognizes me as the person that reported his friend, stepped out from the shack near the cemetery. I think he works there because he always seems to be there between the hours of 7am and 3pm. The shack is the place where they store all the equipment to dig the graves. Scary!!!

Anyhow as I walked past the shack he stepped out and stared at me the entire time. It was a stare of recognition and intimidation. He was literally purposefully trying to scare me. I pulled out by cell and called my sister so that I wouldn’t feel alone. I stared right back at him and walked home. I am getting pissed off at men that think they can intimidate women! Ok this guy is about 6'3" 300 pounds and I am a only 5'3 but who does he think he is! I am not going to be afraid of some bully. All I have to say is BRING IT! If they think they can intimidate me, they have another thing coming. I am not going to be the same scary little mouse that I was last summer. I want to confront them and let them know that their behavior is inappropriate. I don’t think I will approach them but I need to do something soon. I am not going to be afraid anymore.

Sorry that was a long vent but I am tired of this craziness.

My apologies for the grammatical and spelling errors. Happy Easter!



This is a picture of the Hockey Game! Hershey Bears Versus Some other team. Bears won.




Another Picture!!! Fun times, fun times...

Saturday, April 01, 2006

Hair!

I have decided to twist my hair. I thought it should take about six hours to do, but no it is taking me about ten! Urggh I cant believe I have been working on my hair this long. I cant stop because that would mean half of my head is done and the other isnt.

Anyhow, I am off to Chicago for the summer. I just got a position working for a nonprofit company that caters to international students. Essentially these student are brought from another country here to improve their English. They are usually here between three to seven weeks and they stay on a college campus throughout their time in the U.S. I am supposed to to be like a tour guide/ Residence Advisor. I also have to plan fun activities for the students to particpate in. I am pretty excited about this position. Yeah!!!